My husband and I have been married since 1995. We tried for years to have a baby, spending thousands of dollars on fertility treatments, tracking my cycles, and doing everything we could. But it never happened. After a long time, we gave up and started trying to accept that having kids wasn’t in our future.
In 2013, I was still struggling with the idea of never being a mom. I talked to a friend who was a grief counselor, and she told me something that stuck with me — that I needed to grieve not being able to have a child the same way someone would grieve losing a child. It hit me hard, but I went through that grieving process, and little by little, I found some peace.
One day at work, I mentioned to a new coworker that I wasn’t feeling well. She joked and said, “Maybe you’re pregnant!” I laughed and said, “No way. I’m 42, and after 19 years of trying, it’s just not possible.”
But on my drive home, the thought wouldn’t leave me. So I stopped and bought a pregnancy test. As soon as I started using it, the test showed a dark positive line — almost immediately. I was stunned. After all these years, I was pregnant! At 42!
When my husband got home, he started talking about golf clubs and travel plans — because we had decided we would focus on ourselves now: early retirement, vacations, golf. I didn’t say a word. I just handed him the pregnancy test. He stared at it, shocked, and refused to believe it until the doctor confirmed it.
We got it confirmed and were sent to a high-risk pregnancy specialist because of my age. The next 7 months were full of weekly checkups, lots of ultrasounds, and a lot of worry. Every time, we thought something might be wrong — no heartbeat, bad genetic tests, something. But every time, everything was fine — except for my high blood pressure.
Because of that, the doctor decided it was safest to do a planned C-section at 38 weeks instead of letting me go into labor. She was worried an emergency might happen if we waited.
On December 10, 2014, our beautiful, perfectly healthy baby boy was born!
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